Where I will go

Peggy’s prompt—where I will go---15 min-- Feb. 1, 2010






Where I will go….where I will go….where I will go….where I will go…where I will go….whither thou goest, I will go….I would go to the ends of the earth for you….where will I go?....I will go where? ….I go where will? This is not leading me anywhere. Maybe I’m not going anywhere. Maybe I’m just here, in the now. No future. No expectations. No wishes. No desires. Just what is here and now. Is that enough? Well, it’s something. It’s better than living in the past, or waiting for the future. But Now is not quite enough for me. I need a little bit of What’s Ahead. Something to plan for. Something to anticipate. Something to contemplate.



For years I lived in the past and the future, ignoring the now. Now I live mostly in the now and pay much less attention to the future and the past. Is this good? I guess the answer lies in whether I’m happier, less stressed, more at peace. Well, I’m definitely more at peace, less stressed, and, at times, happier.



Yesterday the two little boys two houses down the street came to my next-door neighbor’s house to sled down her nicely sloping front yard. They had such a good time, and the dad took his turns, and even the very overweight mom. They clearly were reveling in the rare winter pastime. And for once, I was happy to see someone else having fun. I conjured up memories of Jonathan (and I) playing in the snowing, sledding down the steep hill. And I was so grateful for warm and joyous memories of Jonathan as a child. My memories and my (observation) of the kids at play warmed my heart.